This story has been getting a lot hits over the last several months and I felt it was finally time to re-post it. I have been sober for a little over 4 years now and I’m still going through an emotional healing process that has been very painful. It’s been the hardest thing for me to feel my feelings instead of numbing them with alcohol. Some people think the beginning of sobriety is scary because they have to feel their feelings and then they get super overwhelmed at the thought of feeling their feelings for the rest of their lives. It definitely has not been easy, but with God’s help and with amazing love and support from my pastor and church family and recovery ministry AND dare I share that I’ve been having some amazing breakthroughs with the help of a wonderful Christian Psychotherapist that God led me to…well, learning to feel my feelings instead of trying to numb them is saving my life.

I don’t think you found this page by chance. I believe God led you here. If you’re tired of hiding your secret, tired of being in denial, tired of being lost, sick, depressed, tired of feeling alone–that nobody can possibly understand…if you’ve lost everything or are about to because of your addiction, please know that you are SO not alone and with hard work it IS possible to get sober and stay sober! I pray that you will get help before your addiction kills you like it did Julie Kroll. You may get by for years, but eventually the alcohol and drugs kill. The devil is counting on it. So many of us are ashamed to reach out for help. There is nothing to be ashamed of. I pray you will surrender and get help. I have nothing to do with Julie Kroll or the documentary, I just want to share it because I think so many need to hear it. I hope you read about it and watch the documentary mentioned in it that can be found on YouTube or Amazon Live Streaming (for a small cost that’s worth it) or share it with someone you know who needs help. Most important, we can’t do this without God so reach out to Him first. I don’t care what anybody says. Only the Lord can really help us get sober and stay sober. But we also need others who are walking this same walk like the amazing women friends I have in my Christian recovery ministry. They help me stay focused on God and keep on the right path. An addict in isolation is another death sentence.

Then, we need to be vulnerable and share our stories with others so they can find the hope we did. I bet you never thought God could ever use your life to save another…you thought wrong.